Praise and Props to Heather B Armstrong!!!

I watch Nightline on ABC because I like to pretend to be uber-aware of current events and the little 7 minute bursts of information (with moving pictures!) sort of float into my brain and, once in awhile, stay. Also, I have a half hour to use before the "King of the Hill" re-runs come on.

This is what I call my "me time".

The preview of the mommy bloggers story normally would have set me a'flippin' except they hooked me with some donald trump-esque overstatements .. . Oh me oh my, when the story of Heather Armstrong and her Dooce.com so called mommy blog started, I heard myself talking. I am the same kind of parent. I see things in the same way as Heather B, and I see myself in her posts. Well, myself minus any income or beyond-basic computer skills. Okay, and add in 2 girls instead of 1. I love and adore my children. They are both brilliant and beautiful. The truth is this parenting thing can, on occasion, even on a lot of occasions, just can suck BALLS!

Seriously. After seeing the Nightline piece, the next day I went to her website and read recent posts. I was prepared for some funny, irreverent humor. I was not expecting to laugh out loud to the point my eyes watered. I was definitely not expecting the water to turn into real tears. Someone. Else. Feels. This. Way.

I have come to an unexpected place in my life. I have a 3 year old daughter, and a soon to be 5 year old daughter adopted 2 months ago. I have worked for a counseling clinic for going on 8 years. I have worked what is called intensive in-home psychotherapy with other peoples children six hours a week per child and usually have about 5 kids to see every week. Recently, the HR director, hereafter known as Her Horribleness, decided to dump on me the full cost of my families health insurance with no warning. WHAT? I can hear the reader scream (gawd I hope I get a reader) She CANT DO that! Oh so she did. The ugly result is that I cannot afford to work and pay for day care for 2 children and pay for health insurance. After a life of working and mostly enjoying it, I have resigned from my job. My last day is tomorrow. I will be a Stay at Home Mom. I am, The Accidental Mommy.